caring without wearing
January 26, 2019
I am a homemaker, or as some say, a stay at home mom.
My job is one I don't get paid for, in a financial sense.
My payment comes in the form of hugs, smiles, cuddles, messes, and stress.
I love my job, but sometimes I get tired of it. This is just me being completely honest and transparent.
I realize now that I am not the only one. This homemaker thing is not easy, I don't know if it ever has been.
But over time, it seems to get harder - I believe it is because I put taking care of everyone and everything above taking care of myself.
I used to think that taking care of myself first was the selfish thing to do.
I don't have time to take care of myself, my family needs me.
After many hours in desperate prayer for peace and patience, God has opened my eyes.
I cannot effectively care for my family unless I am first cared for.
It's the same mentality behind the oxygen mask in an airplane, place your mask first and then help those around you.
I won't be much help to my loved ones if I pass out on the floor.
So... now I am learning the difference between knowing and doing.
I know I need to take care of myself, but how do I do that?
I've been asked before, "What do you like to do?"
It's depressing that I don't really have a good answer.
I like to watch TV (lame), I like to go on long walks (a little less lame), I like to ...
I got nothin'...
So this year, I am going to try out a few new things.
I will relax!
I plan to do a lot more blogging, with that comes research (which I guess I also like to do).
I am going to read. And not just to gain knowledge or for research. I want to read fiction.
I want to try meditation or maybe even yoga.
I will start a prayer journal.
And I am not going to be ashamed to tell my family that I need me time.
Even if that just means a 20 minute bath while the dirty dishes wait in the sink - and I will choose not to let that bother me.
I will learn how to care for my family without wearing myself out, one day at a time.